Here’s the thing . . . credibility can suck my ass with a straw.
I’m really not sure how much credibility I have with the Community at Large at present. And I really don’t care, because the people I really care about all pretty much have cut me some slack and know that, even if I have flaws and fuck up sometimes, for the most part I try to do my best with what I do and say, both here and in my regular life. And who cares about the rest?
The thing is, I keep getting emails and more information about that other Situation. You know, to do with The Other People and That Other Stuff that is really not so much of my problem anymore except insofar as it involves continuing litigation about which I’m not at liberty to speak.
Part of me, like the crusading dogooder part — which is like, a tiny, tiny, part of me, by the way — feels obligated to do something about some of this stuff.
Most of me thinks, fuck that noise.
Because look, I’ve got a new ad network, and I’m selling my own ads. I’m not losing money anymore and, besides, this is a free market economy. Everyone is free to choose to stay with or leave their representation as they see fit. I’ve tried selling the story to mainstream media and so far nothing has panned out.
So even though some of the stuff you guys are sending me is — WHOA — really scary and kind of disturbing, I just am like, why? Why are you sending it, you know? Because did you catch what happened to me last week? If not, perhaps you’d like to take a gander? Didn’t work out so well for me the last time I picked up that particular topic, and I’m not so sure that I’m ready to do so again.
I’d like to have this conversation continue, and I’d like to do whatever I can to facilitate that discussion. However, I am not convinced that I am the right person to continue to ferry it into its next incarnation. If you think that I’m wrong, I’m happy to be dissuaded from my current position — it’s not that I want the discourse to end, it’s just that I think that if I’m the only one who continues to post on it, that’s the only likely conclusion for it to reach.
As always, I would love to hear your thoughts, peanut gallery.