Last week, I headed over to a mall to try to do Christmas shopping. We are going to visit relatives this year, and so I really need to keep my eyes on the prize about getting this shit done before we leave. Running around at the last second is just not going to fly, since we have to fly next week. Across the country. With a 20-month old. Whole other story.
So I get to the mall and all of a sudden I’m just overcome with this oppressive sadness and feeling of being overwhelmed. Shopping for Christmas seems like such a gargantuan task this year for some reason. I keep saying I’m going to do it online, but even that gets the best of me. Now, I’m not a huge fan of the whole holiday season to begin with–I’ve already shared my thoughts on the food offerings of Thanksgiving, and in general I find Christmas to be a whole lot of hullabaloo over nothing. You can say things like that when you’re not religious, you see. There’s no spiritual element to Christmas for me, and so I’m left with a holiday that just requires a bunch of gift-giving all at once. The fact that I have such a large extended family makes shopping a little more difficult anyway. But this year it’s like pulling teeth even to get little gifts for my son and my husband. I cannot even type in the words “Toys ‘R’ Us” to my browser. It all seems so futile and pointless.
What is it about Christmas this year that is so depressing? Maybe it’s the fact that we’re in a depression. Mr. Right-Click and I were talking about how it seems like there’s so much less hoopla this year–less decoration, less promotion, less bullshit. But that seems like a positive thing to me. I don’t get what’s getting me down. Our Christmas budget this year is definitely smaller, so gift purchasing is more challenging, and then there’s the fact that Mini refuses to go into stores now, unless it is Target or the grocery store, and then he just runs around like a terror or, alternatively, can be bribed to go into stores using one of his beloved stuffed animals as a lure, but then must be watched like a hawk in order to ensure he doesn’t break or otherwise ruin merchandise.
Is it me, or is Christmas kind of a downer this year? Where is that holiday spirit I keep hearing about? How are you all coping with this season, internet?